10: Playtime Q&A – Resisting a lifetime of thoughts

12 hours alone with your thoughts!?! I don’t really want to think about my thoughts that long, I really don’t. I’ve got 55 years of thoughts and their all bottled up. Isn’t that the problem, that we bottle them up and we don’t want to look at them?

And most of the time aren’t the ones that we really don’t like, aren’t actually as bad as we think they are?

– Glenn the Geek

Glenn’s question is really a question about resistance. Of resisting a lifetime of bottled up thoughts, feelings and emotions. When we meditate it brings us into the present moment. But the potential beauty of the experience of this moment becomes small or ‘difficult’ if we resist what is occurring. It is only the resistance – not the experience itself – that creates the difficulty.

Resistance all stems from a judgement: “this is wrong”. Perhaps we close our eyes, we see these uncomfortable thoughts coming, we don’t like them, so we resist them, we push them down/away, we don’t want to deal with them at all.

In actual fact if we allowed them, fully surrender to them, let them engulf us, – and I’ve done this, it’s not comfortable at all. But if you just let it do its thing, it will its only do that for about 30 seconds, 1 minutes tops.it’s its intense, super intense but then you allow it to move and it loses its power.However we judge these thoughts, feelings, emotions when we close our eyes to meditate – it is – it’s that judgement of it which becomes the real issue. Our inner resistance to it will not change it. Our internal struggle to push it away will not help us. If we can simply let what is, be exactly as it is, then maybe that simple choice will allow change to occur. Or maybe nothing will change in the external experience, but most certainly the inner experience will be very different – and so everything begins to transform.

However we judge these thoughts, feelings, emotions when we close our eyes to meditate – it is – it’s that judgement of it which becomes the real issue. Our inner resistance to it will not change it. Our internal struggle to push it away will not help us. If we can simply let what is, be exactly as it is, then maybe that simple choice will allow change to occur. Or maybe nothing will change in the external experience, but most certainly the inner experience will be very different – and so everything begins to transform.Without that judgement or comment the thought feeling or emotion is just an experience. Just something which you notice as you meditate – as insignificant as a cloud floating past on a sunny day.

Without that judgement or comment the thought feeling or emotion is just an experience. Just something which you notice as you meditate – as insignificant as a cloud floating past on a sunny day.But may take courage, make no mistake. It may appear scary at first. And intense. But ultimately it is so worthwhile. Don’t let the idea of a few pesky uncomfortable thoughts take you off track from meditating, from experiencing more peace, more joy, more contentment.

But may take courage, make no mistake. It may appear scary at first. And intense. But ultimately it is so worthwhile. Don’t let the idea of a few pesky uncomfortable thoughts take you off track from meditating, from experiencing more peace, more joy, more contentment.

The other thing is, there’s always going to be thoughts, whenever you meditate. They could be scary, or funny, or annoying or even just repetitive.

Just today I spent all afternoon meditating and the content of my mind was obsessing over pizza – seriously, I’ve been on retreat for almost 2 weeks, all my meals are supplied which means I have very little choice or control over what I get to eat. And this afternoon, I was feeling hungry and all my mind could think about was pizza and chips and dip.

So it’s always going to be something, good, bad or just silly. It is possible to treat them all the same, then none of them can affect you or pull you away from the present moment.

Let me know what you think or if you have any follow up questions you can email them through to me at lila@lilab.life.

Or – leave me a voicemail of up to 90 seconds with your question and I’ll play it on the show! You can record your message at www.lilab.life

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